On Wednesday I had lunch with someone who has worked closely with all of us Serious Eaters since we started almost four years ago. I hadn't seen him in a few months, so we had a lot to catch up on. I got to the restaurant before he did, and when he walked in and saw me waving, he came over to our table and said, "Wow, you're really finished with your serious diet. You've done it. Congratulations." He was clearly impressed with my slimmer (or less fat, depending on how you look at it) appearance.
Of course I appreciated the kind words, which acknowledged the progress I've made on my serious diet. But then I started questioning his assertions/comment. Am I really finished with my serious diet? Have I really "done" anything yet? Should I be congratulated?
Am I finished? No, not by a long shot. I still eat more than I should, either because I truly love what I'm eating, or because I'm feeling anxious or depressed. The fact is that I will never be finished. I will always be on my serious diet, whether I like it or not. Why? Because my struggles with overeating and my weight will continue until my last bite of pleasure, which I hope isn't going to be for a long while.
Have I really "done" anything yet? Yes I have. I have lost a significant amount of weight over a long period of time and have kept a significant amount of it off. Yet I continue to struggle with maintenance issues. So the bottom line for me: the grade I would assign myself is an incomplete. Because for me grappling with my weight is a never-ending struggle.
Should I be congratulated? I think so, because what I have been able to accomplish these past 143 weeks is significant and crucial to my being around for awhile. But I also know that for me a swelled diet head leads to a bigger gut and many future problems, so I won't be taking any diet victory laps any time soon.
I am away for the weekend, and I conveniently forgot Thinner at home yesterday. But rather than take a week off from revealing my weight, I have decided to give you my weight as of yesterday: 223. Up a pound from the week before. But the Serious Eats book is going to be turned in this coming week, so I hope I can turn things around starting next week. It would be good to have a couple of good weeks leading up to Thanksgiving.